running

today i~m missing s.f. i~m not sure why. i think it~s the people, the ones i love and want to be with. it may also have to do with missing conveniences. everything in the states just works. i have bought two flashlights and they both stopped working after two uses. the knives aren~t sharp, the internet doesn~t always work. the toilet paper dissolves in your had (if there is any) the ketchup and salt have half the flavor, and the list goes on.

but what i miss is the familiar. i know this will pass.

when i was in europe about 5 years ago, i was eating in a hostel kitchen and a guy sat next to me and asked "are you running away or running to?" i said i didn~t know. but looking back, i was separated from my then husband for 5 months and i know now that i was running away. but this time, i am running to. when i am running from, i am always looking back but running to has limitless possibility ahead.